It seemed so ridiculously cruel and unfair that I should suffer morning sickness today. There is part of me that wishes I knew what it was that I did to deserve all of this.
I am having some pains today, so I think things might happen faster than I thought. The Dr. had said it could be about 3 days before I notice any pains.
So... now we play the waiting game... again.... waiting for my body to simulate labour and to expel the contents of my womb... once again, bringing our total number of angel babies to 10.
The only emotion I feel is numbness, this actually just cannot be happening again...!!!
You must have so many questions about why this is happening. Do the specialists offer any explanations or further tests that can be done? I'm so sad for you. You're so strong.
ReplyDeleteThanks Ali. No explanations were offered at all, just 'one of those things'. All of my tests have come back clear so it makes absolutely no sense that I keep getting pregnant but not remaining pregnant, the only possible explanation is that the sperm quality is not sufficient to sustain a pregnancy. We havent even thought about where to go from here, still finding it impossible to actually believe that I am losing this pregnancy. It was just so different this time, we were certain it would all be fine, we were certain this would be our time.... we were wrong.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your continued support and kind messages.xx.