Thursday, January 19, 2012

40 Weeks.......

So...I've just received a message on my iPhone from the Baby Centre App saying 'Congratulations, You are 40 weeks pregnant, your baby weighs around 7.5 lbs and will be making an appearance soon'

Yep...today was my due date for my first transfer last year. At the time, I convinced myself that it was a lucky date and the fact that it would fall on this date meant it was sure to all go ok. (Isn't it funny the things we cling on to in search of hope?) You see...today is a special day for another reason..... 16 years ago today, my Dad passed away.

So yeah...today is a difficult day, a very very difficult day.

But hopefully it is just going to be a difficult day...we head off on holidays tomorrow. A well deserved 17 days of absolute bliss, including a 7 night Western Caribbean Cruise, 7 nights in Orlando and brief stop-offs in Atlanta and New York.

The holiday of a life-time and although I know it will be absolutely fabulous... I guess it will be tinged with the knowledge of how things should be different........