The faintest positive line but it is definitely there...!!!
I'm Pregnant...!!!
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Day 28 .......... I Couldn't Wait...!!!
Day 28 and I just couldnt wait any longer to test, it was a bit of a risk testing five days early.......but........
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Day 27 .......... Big Thunder Mountain(s)
Day 27 and no the title is not in any way related to my recently doubled-in-size, crazy painful boobs...!!!
I had really really bad pains at around 3am, they lasted just over an hour and then just stopped. I was convinced that that was the end of it, but I'm still having lots of the same symptoms today that I've been having, along with lots of headaches.
I went in to work for a while again today, and again, fell asleep for a bit when I got home.
I've been having lots of cramps this evening, they almost feel like pre-menstrual cramps, but my next period isn't due til the 17th.
All this waiting and experiencing symptoms and not knowing what they mean..........it is all completely headwrecking...!!!
The whole IVF process is an unbelievable emotional rollercoaster, the waiting, the worrying, the uncertainty. At times it just seems so much, but we are clinging on to whatever hope we can find that whenever this journey ends for us, we will have a precious little baby to hold in our arms.
I had really really bad pains at around 3am, they lasted just over an hour and then just stopped. I was convinced that that was the end of it, but I'm still having lots of the same symptoms today that I've been having, along with lots of headaches.
I went in to work for a while again today, and again, fell asleep for a bit when I got home.
I've been having lots of cramps this evening, they almost feel like pre-menstrual cramps, but my next period isn't due til the 17th.
All this waiting and experiencing symptoms and not knowing what they mean..........it is all completely headwrecking...!!!
The whole IVF process is an unbelievable emotional rollercoaster, the waiting, the worrying, the uncertainty. At times it just seems so much, but we are clinging on to whatever hope we can find that whenever this journey ends for us, we will have a precious little baby to hold in our arms.
Monday, May 9, 2011
Day 26 .......... Bowling Balls...!!!
Day 26 and I didn't sleep well last night, got very little sleep actually. I went into work this morning and ended up staying there til 3:30, I wasnt doing anything much, just some light paperwork (oh and lots of talking...!!!). I was, however, completely exhausted by the time I got home and have slept until now.
Just hope I'm able to sleep tonight now...!!!
The nausea was really really bad today, I was getting waves of it every few minutes it was just horrid.
I didn't have much pain, just some minor lower-abdominal cramping today.
My breasts have started to become very sore and swollen, I feel like I have 2 bowling balls (minus the finger holes ) hanging on the front of my chest...!!! (Ok Guys.......Stop picturing that NOW)
So, 'D' Day is only a week away now...xx.
Just hope I'm able to sleep tonight now...!!!
The nausea was really really bad today, I was getting waves of it every few minutes it was just horrid.
I didn't have much pain, just some minor lower-abdominal cramping today.
My breasts have started to become very sore and swollen, I feel like I have 2 bowling balls (minus the finger holes ) hanging on the front of my chest...!!! (Ok Guys.......Stop picturing that NOW)
So, 'D' Day is only a week away now...xx.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Day 25 .......... 5 Days Post-Transfer
Day 25 and I got out of the house for a bit today. We went in to town for some lunch and to do some shopping. It was nice to get out of the house, but gosh, I was wrecked by the time we got home.
I am feeling a lot of lower abdominal pressure today.
So, we're at Day 5 post-transfer, 8 days to go...although I have to admit, I am itching to test sooner than the 16th, I know I really should wait but gosh, it is oh so difficult...!!!
I feel like I might go into work tomorrow for an hour or so, just to get out of the house for a bit,obviously I wont be driving because I am still experiencing regular dizzy spells, but Patrick is still off of work with his ankle so he will be able to drive me into work for a bit.
I am feeling a lot of lower abdominal pressure today.
So, we're at Day 5 post-transfer, 8 days to go...although I have to admit, I am itching to test sooner than the 16th, I know I really should wait but gosh, it is oh so difficult...!!!
I feel like I might go into work tomorrow for an hour or so, just to get out of the house for a bit,obviously I wont be driving because I am still experiencing regular dizzy spells, but Patrick is still off of work with his ankle so he will be able to drive me into work for a bit.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Day 24 .......... Fussy Little Fecker...!!!
Day 24 and I am just completely wiped out, I managed to get up for a bit today but not for long.
Liam thought it might be nice if we went out for dinner, a lovely idea...but not a hope in hell my body was going to let me do that.
Patrick went out with Liam and a few friends, so he should be home shortly enough.
I was absolutely certain that I wanted some green tea earlier, so I made some........ but as soon as I got the smell of it, I was hit by a wave of nausea.
I tell ya this baby is a fussy little fecker...!!!
Everyone keeps sympathising with my pain and sickness, but I really don't mind it too much, every twinge or bout of nausea is just my baby's way of telling me that he/she is still there.
Liam thought it might be nice if we went out for dinner, a lovely idea...but not a hope in hell my body was going to let me do that.
Patrick went out with Liam and a few friends, so he should be home shortly enough.
I was absolutely certain that I wanted some green tea earlier, so I made some........ but as soon as I got the smell of it, I was hit by a wave of nausea.
I tell ya this baby is a fussy little fecker...!!!
Everyone keeps sympathising with my pain and sickness, but I really don't mind it too much, every twinge or bout of nausea is just my baby's way of telling me that he/she is still there.
Friday, May 6, 2011
Day 23 .......... Not Much Change
Day 23 and I was very sick last night, but have not been sick so far today. Am still very tired all the time and crampy and headachy, but apart from that......not much progress since yesterday.
Still feeling very positive about everything as I am feeling exactly the same as I did the last time I was pregnant, even my gums are annoying me...!!!
I've completed my three days of complete bed-rest now, so will try and get up a bit tomorrow and progressively more over the next few days and hopefully that will make the time go a bit faster until we can test.
Still feeling very positive about everything as I am feeling exactly the same as I did the last time I was pregnant, even my gums are annoying me...!!!
I've completed my three days of complete bed-rest now, so will try and get up a bit tomorrow and progressively more over the next few days and hopefully that will make the time go a bit faster until we can test.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Day 22 .......... Day Time TV
Day 22 and I am completely wiped out...!!!
I'm feeling very very tired, but not sleepy. The cramps are worse today too, accompanied by a feeling of pressure in my lower abdomen and I keep getting a light-headed, almost dizzy feeling.
I feel like I need to go to the loo every 30 minutes.
The headaches are pretty bad today too, and Patrick thought maybe I should take some paracetamol (which apparantly is safe to take), but I just couldn't. I'd prefer to put up with the pain because if I took something, I would never stop blaming myself if the test comes back negative on the 16th.
I've pretty much had about all the Day-time TV that I can sanely handle, Thank God for the Internet...!!!
I'm feeling very very tired, but not sleepy. The cramps are worse today too, accompanied by a feeling of pressure in my lower abdomen and I keep getting a light-headed, almost dizzy feeling.
I feel like I need to go to the loo every 30 minutes.
The headaches are pretty bad today too, and Patrick thought maybe I should take some paracetamol (which apparantly is safe to take), but I just couldn't. I'd prefer to put up with the pain because if I took something, I would never stop blaming myself if the test comes back negative on the 16th.
I've pretty much had about all the Day-time TV that I can sanely handle, Thank God for the Internet...!!!
Day 22 .......... Day Time TV
Day 22 and I am completely wiped out...!!!
I'm feeling very very tired, but not sleepy. The cramps are worse today too, accompanied by a feeling of pressure in my lower abdomen and I keep getting a light-headed, almost dizzy feeling.
I feel like I need to go to the loo every 30 minutes.
The headaches are pretty bad today too, and Patrick thought maybe I should take some paracetamol (which apparantly is safe to take), but I just couldn't. I'd prefer to put up with the pain because if I took something, I would never stop blaming myself if the test comes back negative on the 16th.
I've pretty much had about all the Day-time TV that I can sanely handle, Thank God for the Internet...!!!
I'm feeling very very tired, but not sleepy. The cramps are worse today too, accompanied by a feeling of pressure in my lower abdomen and I keep getting a light-headed, almost dizzy feeling.
I feel like I need to go to the loo every 30 minutes.
The headaches are pretty bad today too, and Patrick thought maybe I should take some paracetamol (which apparantly is safe to take), but I just couldn't. I'd prefer to put up with the pain because if I took something, I would never stop blaming myself if the test comes back negative on the 16th.
I've pretty much had about all the Day-time TV that I can sanely handle, Thank God for the Internet...!!!
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Day 21 ..........So Bad, Its Good...!!!
Day 21 and I am very sore, but feeling very positive.
Headaches ... check, cramping ... check, being so tired I feel like I've been hit by a bus ... check, having pulling feelings and twinges in my abdomen ... check...!!!
All the symptoms are as they should be, painful and uncomfortable but easier to bear with the knowledge that it is our baby in my womb that is causing the symptoms.
I am experiencing all the signs of early pregnancy, exactly as I should be, and difficult as it is to cope with, every twinge makes me smile.
Ok...so...maybe a bit hasty........but I checked what my due date will be.............the 19th of January ...... which is my Dad's anniversary, perhaps a coincidence, perhaps a sign, either way...it made me smile.
I have lots of internal bruising from yesterday's procedure, but hopefully that will ease after a few more days.
Now...my body is telling me that I need to doze off for a bit....so...nighty night.xx.
Headaches ... check, cramping ... check, being so tired I feel like I've been hit by a bus ... check, having pulling feelings and twinges in my abdomen ... check...!!!
All the symptoms are as they should be, painful and uncomfortable but easier to bear with the knowledge that it is our baby in my womb that is causing the symptoms.
I am experiencing all the signs of early pregnancy, exactly as I should be, and difficult as it is to cope with, every twinge makes me smile.
Ok...so...maybe a bit hasty........but I checked what my due date will be.............the 19th of January ...... which is my Dad's anniversary, perhaps a coincidence, perhaps a sign, either way...it made me smile.
I have lots of internal bruising from yesterday's procedure, but hopefully that will ease after a few more days.
Now...my body is telling me that I need to doze off for a bit....so...nighty night.xx.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Day 20 ..........Successful Transfer...!!!
Day 20 and I got pretty much no sleep lastnight, I was just really anxious about today.
I got up early and headed into work for a bit, just to pass the time.
I couldn't wait til 10:30 though, I rang the clinic at 10:10 and was put through to the lab. At that stage, they were able to tell me that the embryo had been thawed and had survived the thawing process. At that point, it hadn't started to swell yet, so they were going to leave it about another 30 minutes and if it did not start to swell at that point, they would thaw another embryo. Fortunately the embryo did start to swell a few minutes later and was looking very very healthy.
We headed down to the Clinic and got there just after 12, had to wait about 10 minutes and then we both got gowned up and went down to one of the recovery rooms. We had to sign some more consents and got to talk with the embryologist for a bit. Then we went in to the operating theatre. The Dr. did some scans first to make sure everything was ok and to ensure that no cysts had appeared in the past week.
Then the Dr inserted this big metal speculum thing.....Holy Mother Of Christ..............the size of it...!!!!! That was bad enough...but once it was in place he made it expand............the pain, oh Jesus, the pain...!!!
He then informs me that it will have to stay in place for about 15 minutes while the embryo is being loaded into the catheter. Eventually the lab technician arrived with the loaded catheter and they checked like 10 times to make sure it was the correct embryo ....ie...that it was actually belonging to Patrick and I..!!!
During the actual transfer I only felt a little pinch and it was over very quickly. The removal of that speculum hurt really bad as well, but it didnt take long.
We had to wait around for a bit but we got back on the road quickly and I've been on the couch ever since.
Moving around is very painful and Patrick is being an absolute star. I slept for about 2 hours when I got home. I have to have complete bedrest for 3 days and then take it very easy for the rest of the 14 day period.
We have to test on the 16th to see if the embryo has successfully attached to the womb (I'm having lots of cramps...so that is a good sign)..................so 13 sleeps to go :)
I got up early and headed into work for a bit, just to pass the time.
I couldn't wait til 10:30 though, I rang the clinic at 10:10 and was put through to the lab. At that stage, they were able to tell me that the embryo had been thawed and had survived the thawing process. At that point, it hadn't started to swell yet, so they were going to leave it about another 30 minutes and if it did not start to swell at that point, they would thaw another embryo. Fortunately the embryo did start to swell a few minutes later and was looking very very healthy.
We headed down to the Clinic and got there just after 12, had to wait about 10 minutes and then we both got gowned up and went down to one of the recovery rooms. We had to sign some more consents and got to talk with the embryologist for a bit. Then we went in to the operating theatre. The Dr. did some scans first to make sure everything was ok and to ensure that no cysts had appeared in the past week.
Then the Dr inserted this big metal speculum thing.....Holy Mother Of Christ..............the size of it...!!!!! That was bad enough...but once it was in place he made it expand............the pain, oh Jesus, the pain...!!!
He then informs me that it will have to stay in place for about 15 minutes while the embryo is being loaded into the catheter. Eventually the lab technician arrived with the loaded catheter and they checked like 10 times to make sure it was the correct embryo ....ie...that it was actually belonging to Patrick and I..!!!
During the actual transfer I only felt a little pinch and it was over very quickly. The removal of that speculum hurt really bad as well, but it didnt take long.
We had to wait around for a bit but we got back on the road quickly and I've been on the couch ever since.
Moving around is very painful and Patrick is being an absolute star. I slept for about 2 hours when I got home. I have to have complete bedrest for 3 days and then take it very easy for the rest of the 14 day period.
We have to test on the 16th to see if the embryo has successfully attached to the womb (I'm having lots of cramps...so that is a good sign)..................so 13 sleeps to go :)
Monday, May 2, 2011
Day 19 ..........It's Only A Day A-Way ..........
Day 19 and we're almost there.
I've tried not to really think about it all day, but I am beginning to find it difficult to ignore the butterflies that are dancing treble jigs in my tummy...!!!
I've been in kinda crappy form all day and have been feeling a lot of pressure in my lower abdomen.
Gosh, its hard to believe that the time is almost here, although it really shouldnt be hard to believe as I have received 16 messages today saying " One More Sleep", Those made me smile.
So.. I had a bit of a panic this morning when I realised that Patrick wont be able to drive me home from the Clinic tomorrow because of his broken foot, and I wont be able to drive after the Transfer. I was getting myself into a state about it, until Patrick reminded me of the many many friends I have (sometimes I do forget...!!!), and in the end my brother Liam said that he would be able to move some classes around and he would bring us to Cork and then bring us home again afterwards.
I had suggested that maybe we should just book into a hotel for tomorrow night, forgetting of course that Patrick is going back to the hospital about his ankle early on Wednesday morning.
I suppose...up til a few hours ago, I hadn't really considered the possibility of our blastocyst not surviving the thawing process, but now I am absolutely dreading making that phone call tomorrow morning.
I suppose I just feel like there must be something we can do to increase the chances...but in reality...there is absolutely nothing we can do that is going to make any difference to the outcome of tomorrow's thawing process.
I was thinking I would get an early night tonight, but I think there is little chance of me getting much sleep.
Regardless of what happens tomorrow, Patrick and I want to express our heart-felt gratitude and appreciation for all the support we have received to date. All the messages of support we have received from people we haven't seen in years, and the thousands of messages we receive from strangers all over the world, but most of all to our families and our many fantastic friends who have supported us no end throughout our journey to date.............and also...apologies to anyone I may have upset or offended over the past few weeks..........it wasn't intentional....it was the hormones...!!!
I've tried not to really think about it all day, but I am beginning to find it difficult to ignore the butterflies that are dancing treble jigs in my tummy...!!!
I've been in kinda crappy form all day and have been feeling a lot of pressure in my lower abdomen.
Gosh, its hard to believe that the time is almost here, although it really shouldnt be hard to believe as I have received 16 messages today saying " One More Sleep", Those made me smile.
So.. I had a bit of a panic this morning when I realised that Patrick wont be able to drive me home from the Clinic tomorrow because of his broken foot, and I wont be able to drive after the Transfer. I was getting myself into a state about it, until Patrick reminded me of the many many friends I have (sometimes I do forget...!!!), and in the end my brother Liam said that he would be able to move some classes around and he would bring us to Cork and then bring us home again afterwards.
I had suggested that maybe we should just book into a hotel for tomorrow night, forgetting of course that Patrick is going back to the hospital about his ankle early on Wednesday morning.
I suppose...up til a few hours ago, I hadn't really considered the possibility of our blastocyst not surviving the thawing process, but now I am absolutely dreading making that phone call tomorrow morning.
I suppose I just feel like there must be something we can do to increase the chances...but in reality...there is absolutely nothing we can do that is going to make any difference to the outcome of tomorrow's thawing process.
I was thinking I would get an early night tonight, but I think there is little chance of me getting much sleep.
Regardless of what happens tomorrow, Patrick and I want to express our heart-felt gratitude and appreciation for all the support we have received to date. All the messages of support we have received from people we haven't seen in years, and the thousands of messages we receive from strangers all over the world, but most of all to our families and our many fantastic friends who have supported us no end throughout our journey to date.............and also...apologies to anyone I may have upset or offended over the past few weeks..........it wasn't intentional....it was the hormones...!!!
Thank you all so much.xx.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Day 18 ................ Fish, Meringues and Sulphur Lollipops
Day 18 and I woke up at 6am with the most horrific headache. It was very similar to a migraine-type pain, but without the other migraine symptoms. It was just awful and it took ages for it to go away, I had it for a good 7 hours and then I have just been feeling horrid and nauseous all day.
So, I was laying on the couch, doing some work on the laptop, feeling just horrible and craving meringues (which we didnt have)............when Patrick decided to light the fire...........The smell of the sulphur from the matches...OMG it was fabulous....and yes, you can probably guess what I did next.............straight into my gob, sulphur end first and oh gosh did it taste just fabulous...and the nausea just like...disappeared...!!!
So...it looks like a diet of fish, meringues and matches for the foreseeable future...!!!
It just hit me about an hour ago that today is Sunday, tomorrow is Monday and then like its just the day after that......Two More Sleeps...!!!
So, I was laying on the couch, doing some work on the laptop, feeling just horrible and craving meringues (which we didnt have)............when Patrick decided to light the fire...........The smell of the sulphur from the matches...OMG it was fabulous....and yes, you can probably guess what I did next.............straight into my gob, sulphur end first and oh gosh did it taste just fabulous...and the nausea just like...disappeared...!!!
So...it looks like a diet of fish, meringues and matches for the foreseeable future...!!!
It just hit me about an hour ago that today is Sunday, tomorrow is Monday and then like its just the day after that......Two More Sleeps...!!!
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Day 16 .......... Day 17 .......... Its Not a Chicken...!!!
Yesterday was Day 16 but unfortunately my internet connection wouldnt stay connected long enough for me to post here.
I've had a crazy couple of days at work in preparation for the time I will take off after Implantation on Tuesday.
I started two new medications today, one of which is making me feel very strange and I keep getting really bad cramps.
I'm still having crazy cravings for fish, but I am prepared and have stocked up on smoked salmon...just in case...!!!
I am thinking that I will go into work for a bit on Tuesday Morning because i think if I stay at home..... I will be climbing the walls waiting for 10:30 to come so that I can call the Clinic and find out whether the embryo has survived the thawing process.
The Embyologist explained to us that the embryo is like a sponge, when it is cyropreserved (frozen), it shrinks up, so when it is thawed it is supposed to spring back up, but sometimes it will collapse and then it will die.
So here's hoping all goes well with the thawing process.......which I keep calling 'defrosting' and keep being reminded that it is an embryo, not a chicken...!!!
I've had a crazy couple of days at work in preparation for the time I will take off after Implantation on Tuesday.
I started two new medications today, one of which is making me feel very strange and I keep getting really bad cramps.
I'm still having crazy cravings for fish, but I am prepared and have stocked up on smoked salmon...just in case...!!!
I am thinking that I will go into work for a bit on Tuesday Morning because i think if I stay at home..... I will be climbing the walls waiting for 10:30 to come so that I can call the Clinic and find out whether the embryo has survived the thawing process.
The Embyologist explained to us that the embryo is like a sponge, when it is cyropreserved (frozen), it shrinks up, so when it is thawed it is supposed to spring back up, but sometimes it will collapse and then it will die.
So here's hoping all goes well with the thawing process.......which I keep calling 'defrosting' and keep being reminded that it is an embryo, not a chicken...!!!
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Day 15 ........ I Need Fish
Day 15 and all I want is fish...!!!
I was doing pretty good all morning, but the evening was a different story.
I started the new medications today, they havent affected me too much...yet anyway.
I keep getting spontaneous cravings for fish, like real fish, its like a strong need for it and I just have to have it...!!!
Right now I am super-tired and feeling crap, so I'm gona get some sleep and hope to God I'll be feeling more human tomorrow...!!!
I was doing pretty good all morning, but the evening was a different story.
I started the new medications today, they havent affected me too much...yet anyway.
I keep getting spontaneous cravings for fish, like real fish, its like a strong need for it and I just have to have it...!!!
Right now I am super-tired and feeling crap, so I'm gona get some sleep and hope to God I'll be feeling more human tomorrow...!!!
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Day 14 ................ Six More Sleeps
Day 14 and what a lovely day it was.
I went into work this morning. I was a bit sore but wasnt feeling too bad. Was a productive morning at work and then I called out to see a friend for a cup of tea and some fabulous scones.
She has the most beautiful baby girl who is just 9 weeks old. I held her for a few minutes and was chattering away to her and all of a sudden she took off into fits of like proper laughing, which apparently she had never done before. It was such a special moment, one I will cherish for a long, long time.
Right now, I'm feeling very tired and looking forward to a nice long hot bath and an early night.
I have to start taking the new medications tomorrow, so really have no idea how my system is going to react to those.
Six more sleeps to Implantation......
I went into work this morning. I was a bit sore but wasnt feeling too bad. Was a productive morning at work and then I called out to see a friend for a cup of tea and some fabulous scones.
She has the most beautiful baby girl who is just 9 weeks old. I held her for a few minutes and was chattering away to her and all of a sudden she took off into fits of like proper laughing, which apparently she had never done before. It was such a special moment, one I will cherish for a long, long time.
Right now, I'm feeling very tired and looking forward to a nice long hot bath and an early night.
I have to start taking the new medications tomorrow, so really have no idea how my system is going to react to those.
Six more sleeps to Implantation......
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Day 13..............Achieved Adequate Thickness
Day 13 and we are just back from the Clinic.
The scan hurt loads and I am in a lot of pain.
Good news though...All those 'thick' thoughts worked.....My womb lining has reached adequate thickness to go ahead with Implantation.
What we did not know was that there is a stage between womb lining thickening and Implantation.........which is 6-7 days of intense medication and hormones.
So...the Implantation is scheduled for next Tuesday....well, more accurately...the Thawing is scheduled for next Tuesday and we have to call the Clinic at 10:30 to find out whether the embryo has survived the thawing process or not.
We are a bit disappointed that we have to wait another week, as we weren't expecting it, but I suppose its good news anyway.
Thank you all so much for your 'I'm Thinking Thick' messages yesterday............Keep those positive thoughts coming coz they are certainly working...!!!
The scan hurt loads and I am in a lot of pain.
Good news though...All those 'thick' thoughts worked.....My womb lining has reached adequate thickness to go ahead with Implantation.
What we did not know was that there is a stage between womb lining thickening and Implantation.........which is 6-7 days of intense medication and hormones.
So...the Implantation is scheduled for next Tuesday....well, more accurately...the Thawing is scheduled for next Tuesday and we have to call the Clinic at 10:30 to find out whether the embryo has survived the thawing process or not.
We are a bit disappointed that we have to wait another week, as we weren't expecting it, but I suppose its good news anyway.
Thank you all so much for your 'I'm Thinking Thick' messages yesterday............Keep those positive thoughts coming coz they are certainly working...!!!
Monday, April 25, 2011
Day 12 ............ Sickness, Sulking and Smoked Coley...!!!
Day 12 and I am pretty much resigned to nausea and vomiting on a regular basis...!!!
I wasnt feeling too bad when I woke up, but it didnt take long for the nausea to start.
So, I asked Patrick to do something this morning and his initial reaction was to refuse to do it, which he quickly changed to 'Oh, I suppose I better do it...coz you'll be sulking for the day if I dont'
SULKING......I'll give him F'n sulking......... Yeah...I'm a bit emotional at times coz I'm so doped up on hormones..........but sulking...??? so I resign myself to believing (temporarily) that he has no idea how difficult all of this is for me and of course, he just doesn't care....oh and of course...This is all his fault anyway coz if he didnt break his stupid ankle we would be on our cruise right now and I wouldnt be sick and hormonal..... ( Ok...so logic had escaped me momentarily...!!!)
We went to Dunnes in Thurles for a bit to do some shopping. I usually do not eat much fish coz I dont really like it and I never buy it...well...unless it is covered in breadcrumbs and comes in a box in the freezer...!!! I usually hate the smell from the fish counter, but today....I was drawn to it and just had to have some smoked coley.....Ok...so I had never even heard of coley before and even Patrick was super surprised that I wanted to buy fresh fish as it is so unlike me.
In all honesty...I probably would have eaten the smoked coley there and then, if it wasnt totally like socially unacceptable to do that...........oh yeah...and the fact that it could have killed me......... but I was seriously craving it...!!!
Yeah and then like two seconds later we passed the fresh meat counter and I had to run to the bathroom and be sick...!!!
We came home then and I've been relaxing since. Its almost time for me to take the next lot of hormones so should be a fun, nausea-filled evening.
We're going back to the Clinic in the morning to see if my womb lining is thick enough to maybe go ahead with the Implantation on Wednesday or Thursday, if it is not thick enough we will probably have to increase the hormones again and wait a few more days..............so think 'thick' everyone...!!!
I wasnt feeling too bad when I woke up, but it didnt take long for the nausea to start.
So, I asked Patrick to do something this morning and his initial reaction was to refuse to do it, which he quickly changed to 'Oh, I suppose I better do it...coz you'll be sulking for the day if I dont'
SULKING......I'll give him F'n sulking......... Yeah...I'm a bit emotional at times coz I'm so doped up on hormones..........but sulking...??? so I resign myself to believing (temporarily) that he has no idea how difficult all of this is for me and of course, he just doesn't care....oh and of course...This is all his fault anyway coz if he didnt break his stupid ankle we would be on our cruise right now and I wouldnt be sick and hormonal..... ( Ok...so logic had escaped me momentarily...!!!)
We went to Dunnes in Thurles for a bit to do some shopping. I usually do not eat much fish coz I dont really like it and I never buy it...well...unless it is covered in breadcrumbs and comes in a box in the freezer...!!! I usually hate the smell from the fish counter, but today....I was drawn to it and just had to have some smoked coley.....Ok...so I had never even heard of coley before and even Patrick was super surprised that I wanted to buy fresh fish as it is so unlike me.
In all honesty...I probably would have eaten the smoked coley there and then, if it wasnt totally like socially unacceptable to do that...........oh yeah...and the fact that it could have killed me......... but I was seriously craving it...!!!
Yeah and then like two seconds later we passed the fresh meat counter and I had to run to the bathroom and be sick...!!!
We came home then and I've been relaxing since. Its almost time for me to take the next lot of hormones so should be a fun, nausea-filled evening.
We're going back to the Clinic in the morning to see if my womb lining is thick enough to maybe go ahead with the Implantation on Wednesday or Thursday, if it is not thick enough we will probably have to increase the hormones again and wait a few more days..............so think 'thick' everyone...!!!
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Day 11.................I Just Don't Care...!!!
Day 11 and I was just so sick I just had to come home. We had planned to stay in Cork til Tuesday, but I am feeling so crappy, all I wanted to do was come home.
I had to increase the hormones again this morning and I have never been so sick and upset and just plain fed-up, in my life...!!!
Even a cup of tea made me sick this afternoon.
So yeah..I've been feeling pretty miserable all day.............well...up until about 5 minutes ago...when I received a well-worded text message from one of my best friends, reminding me that I could be pregnant in just a few days. (Thanks Mary.xx.)
Its almost time for me to take the increased dose of hormones again, so I think I'm just going to snuggle up on the couch for the evening with a bottle of soda water and maybe I'll try some food again a bit later...!!!
I had to increase the hormones again this morning and I have never been so sick and upset and just plain fed-up, in my life...!!!
Even a cup of tea made me sick this afternoon.
So yeah..I've been feeling pretty miserable all day.............well...up until about 5 minutes ago...when I received a well-worded text message from one of my best friends, reminding me that I could be pregnant in just a few days. (Thanks Mary.xx.)
Its almost time for me to take the increased dose of hormones again, so I think I'm just going to snuggle up on the couch for the evening with a bottle of soda water and maybe I'll try some food again a bit later...!!!
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Day 10....started off really well......
Day 10 and it started off really well.
We had a lovely breakfast, went shopping for a bit....which was just fabulous...it was relaxed shopping, we stopped and I had a fruit drink, Patrick had a coffee and we just watched the world rushing about for a while. Then we came back to the hotel and had a fabulous lunch.
We came up to the hotel room and after lunch and before I knew it...it was almost 5pm...I had fallen asleep and had slept for almost 2 hours...!!!
I took the hormones at 6pm and was feeling ok for a while. We had arranged to meet Liam in the City at 7:30 and he was taking us out for dinner.
I started to feel a bit weird right before we left, but we got a taxi into the City anyway and Liam took us to the most fabulous restaurant.
As soon as the starter came out, I knew I just couldnt eat it.........my stomach just turned, it was just awful.
The poor waiter, an Italian chap, couldnt understand what was wrong, he thought there was something wrong with the food...!!!
I managed to have most of the main course and of course the Tiramisu stayed down with ease. Patrick and Liam wanted to go for a drink afterwards, but I just couldnt. I was suffering with major nausea while we were walking down the street and at that point I really just wanted to go back to the hotel.
So, we hopped into a taxi...of course a taxi with a stupidly strong air freshener...which really wasnt helping my nausea situation...!!!
So...we're just back at the hotel now and I'm snuggled up in the bed.
Not really looking forward to tomorrow as I have to increase the hormones again tomorrow and I have been desperately sick every time I have increased the dose.
Patrick has just walked into the room...and even his aftershave (which I love)... has just made me desperately sick.
I think I'm gona try and get some sleep and hopefully shake off this nausea for a few hours anyway......
We had a lovely breakfast, went shopping for a bit....which was just fabulous...it was relaxed shopping, we stopped and I had a fruit drink, Patrick had a coffee and we just watched the world rushing about for a while. Then we came back to the hotel and had a fabulous lunch.
We came up to the hotel room and after lunch and before I knew it...it was almost 5pm...I had fallen asleep and had slept for almost 2 hours...!!!
I took the hormones at 6pm and was feeling ok for a while. We had arranged to meet Liam in the City at 7:30 and he was taking us out for dinner.
I started to feel a bit weird right before we left, but we got a taxi into the City anyway and Liam took us to the most fabulous restaurant.
As soon as the starter came out, I knew I just couldnt eat it.........my stomach just turned, it was just awful.
The poor waiter, an Italian chap, couldnt understand what was wrong, he thought there was something wrong with the food...!!!
I managed to have most of the main course and of course the Tiramisu stayed down with ease. Patrick and Liam wanted to go for a drink afterwards, but I just couldnt. I was suffering with major nausea while we were walking down the street and at that point I really just wanted to go back to the hotel.
So, we hopped into a taxi...of course a taxi with a stupidly strong air freshener...which really wasnt helping my nausea situation...!!!
So...we're just back at the hotel now and I'm snuggled up in the bed.
Not really looking forward to tomorrow as I have to increase the hormones again tomorrow and I have been desperately sick every time I have increased the dose.
Patrick has just walked into the room...and even his aftershave (which I love)... has just made me desperately sick.
I think I'm gona try and get some sleep and hopefully shake off this nausea for a few hours anyway......
Friday, April 22, 2011
Day 9 .............. Feeling Great
Day 9 and I am feeling just fantastic.
We have settled into our Hotel room, ok we did have to complain and change rooms coz the first one wasnt clean...but even that didnt result in hormonalness.
I've only had a nausea feeling once today and even that passed very quickly.
So basically all I have planned for the next three days is relaxing, relaxing and more relaxing...(oh and eating lots of ridiculously rich food, spa treatments and maybe even some shopping...!!!)
ok...am off down for dinner now.......
We have settled into our Hotel room, ok we did have to complain and change rooms coz the first one wasnt clean...but even that didnt result in hormonalness.
I've only had a nausea feeling once today and even that passed very quickly.
So basically all I have planned for the next three days is relaxing, relaxing and more relaxing...(oh and eating lots of ridiculously rich food, spa treatments and maybe even some shopping...!!!)
ok...am off down for dinner now.......
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